Yes, that title was mainly to catch your eye and get you reading, though it isn’t completely off topic. I’ve been criticized recently for this blog becoming too theological and not really very personal as it used to be, so the past few posts have been my attempt at getting back to that. Don’t worry, there’s more theology to come, I’m just taking a breather. Anyway, as many people know, I’ve spent the past six months or so writing an album entitled “So Tearful Apologies.” Recently I “finished” it (as any musician knows, are you ever really “finished” with your music?). Technically, it’s not completely done, but it’s done enough for me to feel free to work on my next project, which I wanted to write this post about.
So, I’ve been on a concept album kick. That’s where you write an album with a unified theme or story as opposed to the typical random assortment of songs. My next project is about sex. The working title for it is “Of Clefts and Gardens.” Using Song of Solomon as one of my inspirations, I was wondering if a Christian in 21st century Evangelical America could write and sing art that is explicitly sexual, but both God-glorfying and beautiful. As I’ve jokingly said, my goal is to write stuff that is completely God-glorifying but that no Christian bookstore would carry.
With this project, I want to try something different. I’m writing it as a book of poetry and also recording performances of that poetry and writing music to go along with it in a CD. Some will be songs, some will just have background music for the poems, but I really want to try and publish this. I have a lot of poetry already. I might as well start trying to get it out there. A little bit about the book/album:
I really do want to explore sexuality in all it’s different facets in this project. It will be broken up into four sections, each dealing with a certain part of sexuality:
(1) Purpose: exploring the symbolism and design of sexuality
(2) Passion: looking into that drive that makes us sexual
(3) Perversion: exploring the sexual brokenness in this fallen world
(4) Purity: a celebration of sex in its purest and most God-glorifying forms.
As a treat to those who made it through this whole post and apparently care, I’ve included the audio to the first track/poem from the album/book. It’s called “Do I?” and it sets the tone for the project, asking if I, as a Christian, have as much a right to talk about these things as secular minds do (as a contrast, the last track/poem will be called “I Do” and it will be a celebration of marriage). Feel free to leave comments, criticisms, ideas for poems/songs, or witty insults. Here’s the poem/track. Just click on the title for the audio:
Just because I’m joined to One above
does this mean I am in want of desire for
Do I not dream the same as you?
A joyful consummation at the end of the day
of rising and falling
rising and falling?
Of breaths and sighs
of whimpers and cries
and half taken breaths whispered in my ear
under the weight of knowing
that which was good before we Fell,
before we fell away from Him-
fell away from one another.
Let me fall back into Him, into you:
fall for you as I rise into Thy love
a picture thereof as my soul is known
and I know this union once more.
So can I want? Can I dream?
Can I read the words of wisdom old
and long for your fingers to drip with myrrh
as I reach into your garden latch
and seek the rose I long to taste?