Not of flesh nor will of man
But of heart by will of Him.
Deep within a shot was cast and burrowed in the bow
The fine line of ecstasy and horror homoousion‘d among
Obedience was found on worthy lips, blessing bestowed for ages come.
Yet the blessing’s joy was found as a bell in the mist,
Meaning: it was not.
Until the rocks came.
The first one came through bedroom blinds
The curtain sheer with lustful inviting
A song was sung that day; a song of joy
And yet the muses silent fell, and draped themselves in ash
Songs abounded and wrongs abided, and the Ladies still wore black
Lips were curled and laughs were made, yet the Prophets wept their tears
For as the being was in its becoming, the echoes and wonders and questions
Finally took contour, took shape, grew, and found its home.
And it had weight–such great and mighty weight it had!
Atlas could not bear this Womb of death: pain and suffering’s actualization
But it was done. He is finished.
The Tree of Life entwined with Death
Grew in Second Eden, dripping its fruit of galling sweetness
The poison coursing through veins, making drunk.
It was conceived:
No serpent was found but shame would be known,
Between the notes of eternal song, the weight of blessing on shoulders young.
A consenting rape of sorts, met with tears and song
And it was born(e)
With this redemption came a life of pain tears doubt curse-blessing-curse
Intimacy never known with Him who was so Intimate with her
The Soul’s Home resting in the body of the pierced, obedient one.
For she was home for her Home, so loneliness was hers.
Fingers clutch bedsheets knuckle-white
Release gives blood to members numb
The first breath in minutes graces lips
Eyes open wet against the ceiling above
Both throat and soul sore from magnifying Eternity
The ecstasy has passed.
Past and future wed and consummate;
Obedience found is innocence lost.
Still months away
from ears stung
by song sung
of looséd tongue,
Yet something in her already knows the quiet truth of this Friday
and of her life coming:
“A sword will pierce your heart.”
The tears of joy still sting wounds.
[read other Holy Day poetry here]
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Image: “The Annunciation” by Henry Ossawa Tanner